Flotsam on a High Tide
Whistle for the wind and call up a storm. Tom sails, tattered tempers. And land's a broken promise, a fading horizontal shadow. After months of rolling shipboards, the ground still rocks. Red bougainvillea tangles around shacks, dogs carpet dusty roads. Kids trail behind like shadows. Paradise, after months of beatings by the waves, the captain 's tongue, fist, wet clothes, mold-fouled food, tired stories. Paradise, or the shadow of paradise. Doesn't matter. Missed the packet boat, doesn't matter either. Solid ground, space, fresh food, fresh faces. Every shack full of kids, old women, no cheap rooms, no rooms at all. Doesn't matter, there's a bar. In the shadows an old chanteuse plays lazy chords, singing with a smoke-ruined, break your heart voice, that old devil moon just a shadow in your eyes. Maybe just making more of herself, or maybe she really did sing with the Duke. Her fingers were what he envied, easy on the keys, carelessly right on the chords . Bought her a drink, told her he played, too, but had lost his nerve with the keyboard, maybe someday he'd go back, dragging his past like a shadow. “There' s a room out back.” Could have been a line in a song. I believe he came in like a shadow in your eyes, that old devil moon, she sang. “Play something for me.” Teasing, cajoled. Duets, “Chopsticks,” hand shadows. Playing for centimes and bottle caps. Evenly matched. His fingers. Her heart. Love washed in, flotsam on a high tide, singing a new song. Long, slow, hot afternoons and nights, shadows on the screens, healing her heart, his music, but can't stay, can't leave, good-bye, good-bye. Some days love is just flotsam; some days it's the boat back home.
Published in Borderlands, Court Street Press, Seattle: 1999
Re-printed in Medusa's Kitchen 2/18/2023
Onetime reproduction for non-resale purposes permitted by the author with the following credit line: by Judith Yarrow
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